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2011-12-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

Alright, it's been so long since i touched this blog! haha.
my previous post on betting? haha, kinda got over with betting alrd though.
A's are over, Prom's over, Christmas's over, and it's gonna be 2012 in just a few
days time!

hmmm, slowly but surely getting back my physique and stamina and momentum
after the As. that's on the positive note. so i just read some forums online and the
university website and they consider GP and the content subjects in one sitting, except for
h1. i know i kinda screwed up my GP, its really bad. i hope i get a pass at least? at least E ?
im not asking much, i just wanna get a pass, at least be able to get into either IT or teaching
at the minimum. i just don't wanna let my parents down. they have such high hopes for me.
i just wanna do my duty as a son.

although im passing each day normally on the surface but deep down im so petrified about
results. to be honest, i don't wanna retake the exams again. i may seem selfish now, but
in my opinion, the amount of hard work that i painfully put in should at least get me a pass for GP. it's not fair, to screw up at the last moment, when all along you've been doing fine. Yes, such
things happen, but couldn't it happen at a more approriate time?

Please God, i know that i have sinned, but im only human. i make mistakes but i learn from them. You're the only one that i can turn to now. You give me hope, faith, and strength. I'm
hoping that everything will be smooth-sailing. I hope you can hear my prayer. I love u. Amen.

thoughts just run wild in your head when u have nth to do.
2011 was a meaningful and crazy year for me.

My new year resolution for 2012 :
Never ever to lose hope, faith and strength in myself,
and everybody including the special you. :)

2011-09-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

oh my, look at you boy, tearing up cash just like that...

as the saying goes, the 'ball is round'.. anything can happen,
just take a look at the results, underdogs do get their days too..
and when they do, they do it BIG.. guess i burned about $200+
alrd?? that alrd includes those that i won, and furthermore, when
i win, i just breakeven, so in other words,
i just 'tore up 20 $10 notes with a smile'.

haha, its kinda sad that it had to come to this stage before i realise that
anything that has an age restriction is really bad for u. it's true. Look at
smoking, look at pubs and clubs, look at gambling...
on the other hand, im glad that i finally realise that all this is bad at the
end of my teenage years. respoinsible gambling? bullshit. when u gamble,
there's no such thing as being responsible.

yes i agree gambling gives u the thrill but at this tender age am i really able
to keep up with this thrill by spending about 30-40 each week? like seriously?
just take a look at ur arsenal. just look at how pathetic it is now. so wasted.
you wanna get the thrill? wait till after the 'A's seriously. there are other sorts
of thrills which are non-costly and non-addictive. you can pursue a hobby or sth else.
u do not need to bet to enjoy football really. this $200 can be used to purchase
sth else that u deserve more!

gamble to get more money?? BULLSHIT!! i believe if u're meant to strike it,
whatever u shade in the betting slip will be accurate. haven't you proved it
to yourself alrd yet? isn't it so ironic that punters aren't accurate at all??
so here's the deal:

IM GONNA STOP BETTING/GAMBLING NOW UNTIL THE DAY THAT MY A LVL
OFFICIALLY ENDS (TO START ON 29/11/2011) . IF I BREAK MY PROMISE, IM NOT A MAN AND MY FUTURE WILL BE RUINED. I WILL NOT SPEND MONEY UNWISELY AND
WILL DO MY UTMOST BEST TO SAVE THEM. (p.s, this excludes the occasional big totos.)

oh and, better work hard son, it's really the end of the road, the last 10m/20m in the
100m race. 1 word: CHIONG!

;) hope to meet again at the end of the journey. good luck.

2011-05-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

' BOO! i miss your voice!
Are you busy now?
or are you sleeping ald?
are you doing hw?
How's your leadership training?
i want you to ans! :'(
i feel so lonely without you!
Dun abandon me ok?
I want nothing but you!!! :( '

that was what you wrote in my dashboard on 3/5/2010.
fast forward to now. what have u written? none. not even a single comma or full stop.

sometimes i just feel like ending this r/s. can't u just pay fucking more attention to me ?!
fuck everything man seriously. i'm getting very frustrated being in this r/s.

I JUST WANNA FUCKING END THIS MISERY!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED
TO YOUR LOVE FOR ME?! It just died off suddenly huh? how do i know?

1) you don't bother calling me/msging me good night
2) you don't give a fuck about me
3) all you care is you and your fucking stupid dramas
4) you love siyan more than me ( thats a fact )
5) you don't even bother to want to meet up with me
6) so why the fuck should i care?

i had enough alrd. enough is enough. enough of your fucking nonsense.
actually i knew this would happen right from the start. our personalities clashes.
our thought processes are totally different. your priorities and mine are different.
but still i thought we could last a little longer but evidently it's impossible. too much
weight on my shoulders. maybe i expect too much from a r/s but still you're not giving
me your fair share so fuck off.

i fucking hate the whole thing about this r/s. i don't feel happy and carefree at all.
really don't know what is your problem. one example, why are u so fucking afraid of
coming over to my place? seriously don't understand u at all. why am i your boyfriend in the first place? we been together for 1yr plus how many times have u step in to my house and say
hello to my parents? huh? why are u so afraid of my mum? she also nvr see u b4 den u so scared, next time u go work die liao lor? nvr see your boss den scared like shit alrd?

iyah, there's just too many things i want to say about us but it's getting late alrd.
im really praying hard for a miracle to happen. you know, the funny thing is, you
don't appreciate me at all and im doing stuff just to please you. i guess im just too
obedient alrd. im sure there are better girls out there who will appreciate my love
better than you do.

seriously i can't stand people who takes everything for granted.

2011-04-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

why is this happening to me? what wrong have i done seriously, why am i being treated this way? is it wrong to love someone ? is it wrong to want to spend more time with them? i don't get it. maybe it's just the way we process our thoughts. maybe the things i want in a r/s aren't the things u want in a r/s. sometimes, i really wonder am i your friend or am i your boyfriend? perhaps im just too naive to believe that true love does exists. we've been thru such similar arguments, but have u ever wonder, why do they come back? why do these conflicts come back? have we truly really ever 'solved' them in the first place? you have no idea how fucked up my life is now. i act as though everything's fine but in fact everything's not. it's already so hard coping with jc studies yet i still add on to my burden foolishly by having a r/s. who in the world would want to add burden to themselves? well, me of course. why? because i still treasure the girl that stole my heart and deep down inside me there's sth telling me that i should hang on. there's just a missing link between us, and its so damn bloody hard to fill this gap. do u know how much nagging and torture i have to go thru just so that i can meet u, only to realise that your meeting me is just nothing. well anyway, your show's more important right? have i made the wrong decision? i really really beg and hope that i didn't. sian, why am i always in such a position? i guess this is heaven's way of punishing me for my sins. as the saying goes heaven is fair... bei ai shi xin fu, ai ren shi tong ku. how true can that be.

2011-04-05T00:12:00.005+08:00

hey man, no hard feelings. i know it's tough, but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. just bear with it, its just like 8 more months! thats like less than 3/4 of a year! don't give up so soon!! we're gonna complete syllabus soon!! cheers to that! it'll be revision all the way and isn't revision what we've always been looking for? :) just try to tarhan all the way till a levels, it's worth it i guarentee u. no matter what the outcome is, u have to do your best, its a test of your mental strength. im sure you're not such a weakling like ____....

however, bearing in mind your priorities. mbt is over, is over. no point brooding over it, time to move on guy.

1) weekly tests
2) NAPFA (must get silver once and for all ! )
3) Mid years /revision these are your new priorities, must follow them strictly. im already doing all i can, already pushing myself as hard as i can. why just can't i get what i want? not that im demanding the world.. i just wanna do well thats all...

its really really stressful being a jc student. just gotta bear with it then. gambate and strive on. have the end in mind.
IF OTHERS CAN, SO CAN YOU. STOP GIVING EXCUSES TO YOURSELF !!!

just do it !!! TANK for another 8 months and you're free!! rmb, consistency is key, revision is important too. DO YOUR BEST !!!

hope my iphone case arrives here in time. first time using paypal. LOVE WILL KEEP US ALIVE! <3

2011-03-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

gosh, look what has happened boy! you made a big mess out of yourself! what has happened to your dream of the 'top 5' in class?? turned into a nightmare? better WAKE UP YOUR IDEA MAN BOY! so most likely this common test is gone case. reason? don't give me the stupid excuse of 'no time to study', what bullshit. this paper is almost the a lvl standard. if you can't do this means you can't do the a lvl paper! SHAME ON YOU! better take things seriously now, this year is really no joke, especially now it's term 2 already. syllabus is finishing soon and it's gonna be revision all the way. better buck up for mid yrs and alvls!! DONT LOSE TO THAT JOKE!!! this is seriously unacceptable. pls reflect on what you have done mr lim. you know it's tough and yet u still don't put in enough effort? what is this? u think this is psle / olvl?? don't become the joke of the millenium can?? words of advice: CONSISTENT REVISION & STAY FOCUS!!! its ok to fall, but please learn from your mistake and never repeat it again!!! NEVER REPEAT YOUR MISTAKE AGAIN!!!! remember boy, success is a ladder, not an escalator. YOU GOTTA CLIMB ON YOUR OWN, NOT THEY CLIMB FOR YOU, THEY DON'T GIVE A SH*T ABOUT U. remember, revenge is always a dessert that is best served cold... better buck up for mye's and tests to come. iloveyoubabydear. <3

2011-02-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

it's roughly about 5 weeks to march block tests. that's fast.
kinda still in the cny mood though, but still life goes on.
been feelin' kinda stressed up this few weeks? guess it's gotta
do with the constant tests coming up. but well, it's good as it
really pushes you to your maximum potential.

i guess the subjects i really need help in are gp and econs.
well, to begin with, my humanities are not strong in the first place.
it's the same case when i was in secondary school. i hope it'll be the
same in jc, usual c6s for eng and geog became a1s for olevels, just that
now it's gp and econs. WISHFUL THINKING!!!!

really gotta plan my work well man, focus on weaker subjects, but not
forgetting ur stronger ones. i guess maths is realatively easier, chem just
needs practice, same goes with physics. as for econs i'll just practice essay
writing from the book. For csq, we'll deal with it later. as for gp, just found out
a dirty trick that we can take some _________ from _____________ passages.
just gotta spend some time on that and memorize and thats it. the only way out.

hey, just stay focussed and you'll be on the right track yea? god helps those who helps themselves. your time to shine will come. ;D

sometimes, i really miss tkh's 'encouragement talk'. haha, chemistry is so different w/o
him. i really miss those carefree days where we would just 'lan' with no fear. if only my baby
was in my sch, i would stay back everyday and study while waiting for you just like the past
and go home together...

life is so different now, so competitive. yet, i am so tired. it sucks when you've worked so hard
but the results just don't come. i guess failures really are stepping stones to success. it's all about
attitude, no such thing as stupid. Anw, don't forget, your goal is to be in the top 5, so get the tough going!

and ultimately, to crush him to ashes.
gotta go. hope everything goes well.
i love you. <3

2011-01-26T23:01:00.002+08:00

guess what, it's my 18th bday tmr! and guess what, the new j1's are coming in to
mjc (hell), hahahha!

alrights, to the main point. i've just increased my limit to 10 pull ups! well, not just,
but maybe a couple of weeks back when i first managed to do it in front of dear! LOL!
u see, i realize how important endurance, pereserverance and goals are in life. if i hadn't had
anyone of these, i wud still be a complete failure. FAILURE, U GET IT?

but on the brighter side, im glad that i'm on the right track in life. so far, coping well with
academic tests and revision, hope these continues till the end of a levels. what the principal
said today was right, about ernest shackleton. Was he a great leader? Yes, he was when
he met with calamity, but hell NO in taking risks. U see, life's all about taking risks right?
and the thing is, you gotta know WHAT risk to take. In order to do that u gotta listen
to advice. LISTEN TO THOSE GODDAMN ADVICES!

don't be impatient boy, take it slowly, for the end result is always sweeter than you thought
it would be. you wanna survive in this world, always take advantage of the opportunities right
before ur very eyes. it's either u go to the world, or the world goes to you... im sure u know what u want.

very well, academic side's doing well so far. on to the physical. gotta train for 2.4km. don't let this 2.4km ruin ur whole damn plan! don't be such a pussy! don't be like that guy! Whole day
act pro bui pro. sooner or later he's gonna suffer. revenge is sweet, always.

back to mousehunting again. guess what, i feel that this is the best game to play while u mug.
seriously, its so unlike dota where u really waste so much time. mousehunt is the best game
for mugging, horning every 15mins gets u the excitement and fun without much time wasted.
mousehunt ftw (Y).

how i wish my son/daughter would read this blog to me
on my dying bed as i relive these wonderful memories...

forever, love.

2010-12-08T02:17:00.002+08:00

alright! so i have met my target alrd! 5pull-ups? easily...
haha, but dun better not be too xiao zhang! must train everyday..
maintain that 5 pullups until the napfa and show that guy u can do it
straight in front of his face! Cunning plan...

well, i've just realised the power of goals. it's really useful and it really works.
i don't know but somehow i kinda feel that god is helping me in a way ?
my previous target was 1pullup by the end of 2010. i've alrd met my target
and exceeded it! Well done mate!

next gotta concentrate on the a lvls. it's tough, but it's gonna be sweet at the end,
just like pull-ups. ;D

do i really wanna be a lawyer? i mean, it's food for thought, since it's gonna be
career choosing path alrd, ain't gonna be a uniform-student no more.
i just hope all things go well, really. it's gonna be 2011 in a couple of weeks,
and i really wanna go back to learning piano! Thats so my dream!

i so wanna play on the stage again and let my sweetie see! haha!
in the meantime, gotta get my A's and be in the top 5 of my class.
show them what im really made of.

till then, good luck.
loves.

2010-10-29T19:47:00.002+08:00

good job mate! you're on your way to meeting
your goal! don't get distracted though, still gotta train harder!

current goal is to achieve one pull up with struggle. currently i can do
better than before. i've managed to break the 'deadlock' in pulling myself to the
straight bar, managed to lift my chin to touch the bar. (is it counted? )

also, i've found out that i've been a fool all these while! did the higher bar today,
and it was so totally different. been training on the wrong bar for a month!

well, nvm wads done is done, it's still not too late. hope my efforts will pay off!

on the academic note, first year was a honeymoon year. ( isn't it the same for all??)
gotta be serious and more mature next yr, this will definitely affect my future life.
project work's such a bitch! i hope the 'A' is mine! it's like MY PERSONAL
project work if u wanna be more accurate, haha! ( cross fingers )

love you sweetie! forever mine! (:

2010-09-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

I SWEAR TO GOD IM NOT A MAN IF I CAN'T DO
AT LEAST 1 PULL UP BY THE END OF 2010!

SUMPAH!!

LAUGH AT ME, TREAT ME AS A JOKE,
ONE DAY YOU WILL GET IT FROM ME!

FUCK YOU DOG!!

2010-01-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

well, to begin, today's the
1st day of sch for most students, haha, sadly.
parents went to msia first thing in the morning,
think its sth gotta do with my relative there.

anw, went to peninsula shopping centre to check
out guitars and stuffs, i saw my fav brand! its so
cool! ( the price's even cooler, 4 digits. ) & i realised
most shops in peninsula are owned by indians!
( anw that's besides the point, haha! )

i'm so glad i went to esplanade's open area at abt
late evening today! the sunset's view was beautiful.
shud have taken a pic. anw, i sorta did some self-reflection
when i was enjoying the view.

i've realised how foolish a person i've been all these while.
and i'm so glad i finally have a deeper understanding on the
true meaning of ' don't start treasuring them until you've lost them,
it'll be too late.' i hope i'll have another chance to prove my worth
to you again. i've realised my folly, learnt my lesson! :)

on another note, i was approached by a model scout omw back home
from esplanade! omg, me? being a model? haha, too fat la, my body
not hot enough, there's no steam coming out from it ! lols.

till then, i really miss you alot..
i really wanna spend more time with u tgt..
when can we meet? <3

2010-01-01T20:00:00.003+08:00

Wishing for love
wishing for peace
wishing for happiness
that will come to me.

All are precious
all are sweet
cherishing the moment
as time ticks...

-credits to my sweetheart! ^^
<3 forever.

2009-12-17T00:25:00.003+08:00

well, been awhile since i published
a post eh? haha.

idk y but ever since you left for korea,
i felt that sth inside me was missin' ,
like totally.

its like i'm not myself. this emptiness
inside me is so, undescribable.

guess you're having fun in korea now,
haha, can imagine you laughing your
heart out like that -> =D
that's good, not everyone has the
chance to go overseas and enjoy
themselves you know, lucky girl..
;P [hehe.]

oh well, i've followed ur instructions
and read them one per day. i've read
4 so far, and i can see that you're trying
very hard just to write sth rite? LOL.

yes, they are lame. -.- but it's these
small things that makes the memories
sweeter ain't it? :)

alright, hope you're enjoying urself
in korea now, cus you only have abt 4days
left!

how i wish u'll be back to sg a day earlier..
(beethoven's most famous piece of work you know?)
till then!
<3

2009-09-27T00:44:00.000+08:00

260909 is a very special day.
we gonna keep it low and let the river flow~
(:

<3

2009-09-18T22:06:00.003+08:00

i just wanna put all
the bad things outa my mind
now.

1st week of prelims are over.
well, there's still 2 more days
of it but it's not gonna make
much of a difference though.

sometimes i wonder, is this
for real? i really wanna go
for it, seriously, i really want
to. but something in my mind
is holding me back : it's telling
me that history will repeat
itself.

it's real this time for sure, the
feeling is so real. i don't wanna
lose this feeling, it's just too
'precious'...

i hope everything's gonna be fine.
and that, there'll be no complications.
F1's next week.

<3

2009-09-11T04:21:00.000+08:00

i'm at a loss now.
i don't know why,
its like suddenly i have
no aim for today.

i spent the whole of
last night listening
to those songs &
it made me recall
the past.. things are
so different now aren't they?

maybe this is what
fate has in store for me, maybe
god is just mocking at how much
of a failure i am in life.

somehow, i just have a feeling
that history's gonna repeat
itself once again.. and
i'll be crushed, demoralised
and burnt like last year..

i just want you to feel
happy and free, thats all. i really
do. what abt u ?

losing you is akin to losing my life.

2009-08-27T18:50:00.005+08:00

today aint that bad
afterall, at least that
deadly feeling's more
or less gone.

i've learnt a very impt
lesson today : never
underestimate anyone.
seriously, i've learnt this
lesson the hard way, and
sad to say, it's too late to
even regret now..

but anws, i just wanted to let
u know, that by just hearing ur
voice, u kinda brighten up my day.
im sure u did enjoy the times we
talked late into the night, so do i .
its really a pity that things ended
up like this.. this ain't what i expected.
i don't know abt you.

watching ur dreams shatter just
right before ur very own eyes, that must
have hurt a lot. i've experienced that today.

well anws, im getting back on
track slowly i guess, hopefully.
life has to go on, although i dont
belong here. i'm living in a world
without feelings, colours.. just a
black and white world.

if loving you means letting you

go, what have i gotta do?

2009-08-26T20:22:00.002+08:00

another empty day..

how can i get this feeling
out of me man, like seriously.
this totally sucks.
and i've totally lost focus
becus of youknowho...

even kai siang agreed with me.
my mind wasn't with me during
chem lesson today. i drew propanoic
acid instead of ethanoic acid.
thank god TKH didn't screw
me upside down inside out.

i feel so lousy, as though
all hope is lost, as though it's
the end of the world. nice timing
man, really. esp when prelim's
just arnd the corner.

i really wanna *pok* now,
but i can't & i can't believe
i fell into youknowho's trap
once again.. like even after
98373626192746 times?!
i'm such a fool. a really bloody
big fool. i even lied to myself
to convince myself that it's gonna
be different this time.
i am so wrong.

can anybody save me ? i needa
get myself out of this black hole
b4 its too late. please.

-i just can't bring myself forward to tell you ,
im such a freakin' coward..

2009-08-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

hmm, its coming close
to the end of august alrd..
like, so fast?

gonna be prelims in like 2 weeks
time. o level in abt 1.5+ month like
that? can't wait for it to be over man.
i just wanna get myself out of this sh*t.

i feel so muddled up, so f***ed up.
in just a month, so many things happened
just like that. at first, i thought
youknowwho really meant what she said,
but i was wrong.

what the hell man. seriously, its like i'm
just a substitute. maybe what LY say is right:
once a substitute, always a substitute...

now my daily life is so screwed becus of this.
i lost focus during chem test thinking about
what i should do about you. oh man, im so in for
TKH's blasting.

i don't know la, i really don't know.
although these 3 words ' i don't know'
kills ur brain cells, i have to say
i really don't know.

mum's nagging at me again as usual.
she's adding so much stress to me.
i'm so troubled that i have to resort
to blogging. wow.

-i hope no one sees this post..

2009-07-14T22:16:00.003+08:00

ok its 3rd week of term 3 and
its so screwed up alrd.

so many things to do, just so
little time. and we gotta be in
sch on sat cus of chem remedial
once again. argh!!

time's passing too fast. way too fast.
week 3 in like blink of an eye? gonna
be prelim in like 1/2 month time?
omg, we've got to start preparing
man, seriously.

well, i think i have more faith in my
combined humanities than pure geog
like totally. i think geog is seriously
hardcore to the max, so kudos to
those who aced the subject.

gotta buck up man. time's really
running out. i hope everything
goes according to plan, please.
i just want all these to be over soon.
english oral's our first obstacle.
gotta practice bullshitting man,
if not you can't score. serious.

anw, life's good so far. not too bad,
taking it well. let's hope this lasts
till after o lvl.

okay, time for mousehunt. i think
reformatting my com was a right
thing to do. i can't play dota now.

-haha, been awhile eh?

2009-06-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

alright, june hols are gonna be over soon man.
in a few days time, life's gonna be the same again.
well, this is gonna be the last and final step we take
b4 we face the big exam huh.

come to think of it, 3.5yrs gone just like that in TK.
we're ageing so fast man, gosh, i feel so old now. LOL.
anw, i just feel that as soon as this is over, we're gonna
move on to the next phase of our life.

to be honest, i don't know man. i really don't know.
everything's changing. everything's not going according
to plan.

how i wish time could pass faster. all these sh*t would be over,
and the anguish that im going thru now would vanish.

on the other hand, there's so many things i wanna learn.
bottomline's that we just don't have enough time. haiz.

well, i just hope everything's smoothflowing man, 2009
was supposed to be a great year for me.

- discussing chem spa at
the void deck is cool.

2009-06-14T18:44:00.003+08:00

truncated's over!
thats the headlines, haha. so we're gonna have
2 weeks without sch and its back to sch again.

damn, i feel like we're having psle again. the only
difference is that psle wasn't that stressful compared
to o levels. i guess it's the number of subjects examinable.

so, everyone's addicted to MOUSEHUNT!! can't believe i
actually sounded the horn at 3am once! pure addict can.
haha.

jamming session tmr! gonna do face down cobus style yea!
i've mastered the art of cobus alrd.. in my opinion.

HARPER's ISLAND IS ON ON CHANNEL 5 TONIGHT
AT 10.30PM ! MUST WATCH. ( okay, this is like a reminder
to myself , zz. )

gotta go sound the horn now, till horns do us apart. =D

-i actually took a vid of friday's outing, super hilarious.
anw drag me to hell is disgusting. argh...

2009-06-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

alright! truncated lessons!
1st week's gonna be over so, just
hang in there. =)

i love mr tan's rule number 5 :
PLAY DURING WEEK 3 ! RECHARGE!
im so gonna heed this advise.

alright, there's this interclass soccer thingy
tmr. LOL , can't imagine. anw, carlo ancelotti's
chelsea new manager! way to go man, although
i still prefer hiddink. sobs.

well, many things happened these few days, as
usual. just a thought, think it's a must for me to
work during the dec hols! got to have my own
pocket money alrd. oh man, life's tough, live it.

alright, there's nth much i can say about now,
it's facebook time.

-this is killin' me... i need my ecstacy

2009-05-19T20:31:00.002+08:00

DISAPPOINTED.

yup that's the word.
ah! so disappointed at myself.
really regretted not working hard
for MYES. ( ESP PHYSICS!! )

alright, there's still hope to come though.
it's not over yet. but still, argh.
well, what's done is done, life still
goes on. gotta buck up for prelims then!

anws, caught ANGELS & DEMONS finally!
it was on last friday, outing with dad and sengkang
gang. ( YES, My DAD WANTED to watch it badly..)
i gotta give it 4+/5 rating man. seriously check
out this movie if u have the chance. it'll blow you off !

went jamming on monday with our new additional
member. the session wasn't so bad afterall. had some
funny incidents at bugis street with sebastian. LOLS!

aites, at least i posted okay. damn it, sis's going
m'sia AGAIN. uni student's life so shiok ? >.<

signing off, what a long post. :D
-ahhhh! god is fair but life just ain't..

2009-05-14T13:43:00.002+08:00

omgosh! amaths paper1 is so screwed!
it wasn't tough leh.. just that i was too..
distracted/complacent ?
i hope my paper 2 pull me up! xD
oh well, what's done cant be undone.

anws, my dad just attended some
adam khoo talk organised by his
company. he told me' focus on what
you have and not what you don't have.'
how true can that be...

well, mid yr's gonna be over tmr, kinda
regret not putting in enough effort though.
but there's still prelim! haha. eff it. =X

*wah my eye red like 1 month liao sia!
permanent sharingan ? >.<
my eye was damn pain this morning though..

2009-05-12T18:17:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i just feel like shouting la. omg damn sian diao.
i just found out that i got KS-ED AGAIN.
AGAIN ,YES, AGAIN. ARGH.

damn, life's so unfair. we never get the things
we want but we always get the things we don't want.
cheem? in short : LIFE'S UNFAIR, but god is. haha!

okay, life goes on just like what mr tan says. enough
of this crap. be glad that chelsea thrashed arsenal! [ haha glen! ]

two more paper's to go: amaths and emaths p1. i don't intend
to mug for these papers though. lol.

had soccer with sengkang gang and some other muhds. ( eh i
score okay! ) fruitful exp i must say, but my toes hurts now..
=(

alright, i can hear dota calling me now.

till then, life goes on.......

2009-04-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I LOST THE <3 THAT M.C GAVE ME
ON VDAY.. AHHHH!!!

THE PINK ONE THAT WAS ALWAYS IN
MY WALLET, -> is gone !

oh well, guess i must have dropped it somewhere,
who will steal my <3 ? [ Like who has no life.. -.- ]
= '((

DAMN-ATION!!
oh well,
guess i'll just have to blame
myself for my own
carelessness den.. =(

-Poll: Should i shave my 'dirty' goatee ?

2009-04-19T19:29:00.002+08:00

oh my, mid yrs are coming!
chiong chiong chiong!
haha.
i just realise that my treadmill
is still working! haha.

NAPFA's a bitch, seriously.
but anws, i've been running
for the past few days, guess my
stamina has improved? hmm..

is harper's island really a scary show?
im so gonna watch it tonight. and i miss
like 1kajillionbajillion episodes of prison break!
okay but the good thing is there's s factor
on channel 5 tonite! xD

alright, recently there's this cute tkgs girl
that just joined my maths tuition. HAHA.
she's got a cute name too. :P

alright revision time now.

- coincidence? divine intervention?
i really don't know. argh.

2009-03-29T19:30:00.002+08:00

wassup people! week 1 term 2's over.
haha, there's physics test tmr and
im still using the com here. -.- !

got back result slip and im like okay,
as usual parents not satisfied. zzz.
anws, went to TM ytd, checked out
drumsets. only 700+ for a small one!
thats like so offer, but it's only a basic
five piece. okay la, quite reasonable?

im so hooked to facedown by RJA. zomg,
this is driving me crazy!

alright i better mug for physics now,
before it's too late!

- i bet you laugh, at the thought of me
looking for myself... ( i bet you laugh )

2009-03-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

alright people, did a couple of revision
today, and as usual- played dota! haha!

hmm, maelstrom motion's kickin' in
so ' dirtily ' ! ( if ever there is such a
word, im the creater of it.) can't wait
to do face down! ( RJA )

drummin' for facedown ain't easy fools.
check this vid out. Cobus such a 'dirty' person.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL8nonY4QI8&NR=1

iyah, lazy to code it la, just click on the link.

its gonna be the end of march soon! and i felt
as though march just started. Holiday
didn't felt like holiday man, damn !

signing out, tmr's school.

- whats wrong with my goatee?!?!

2009-03-14T21:38:00.005+08:00

Maelstrom Motion !

haha, this pic was taken like
one kajilion bajilion years ago.
but still, it's still fresh!

alright homies, term1's gone
and term 2's coming. MID-YEAR
EXAMS! argh. There's just so much
revision to do but there's so little time left...

caught ' Kung Fu Chef' on friday with glen
and victor. Quite disapointing i would say,
its so disappointing that me and glen had
to keep saying 'dirty' at the last part of the movie
to keep ourselves laughing non-stop.
[ Watch the movie and you'll know. (: ]

anw, b4 i sign off, i made
a very amazing discovery
today.
Uncle- MU fan
Dad- Arsenal fan
Bro-in-law - Liverpool fan
Me- Chelsea fan [ =( ]

This explains why we can't
watch big matches together... xD

alright,
keep doing your thing and
go with the flow.
Can i have your number ?

2009-02-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

oh my, tmr's march alrd !
well, there's just no time to blog
these days seriously. argh ! =(

alright, i so can't wait for 'angels
and demons' to be out in the cinemas!
watched the trailer and im like wowed
by it. Read the book and you'll know.

hmm, dota fever is back again. maybe i'll
go back to naruto during the hols. haha!

-without wax.
[ im just tryin to be a better man.. ]

2009-02-07T13:28:00.002+08:00

alright, so i went jamming
with seb and daniel ong ytd after sch.

it was so fun! jammed arnd and guess
what i broke the ride cymbal stand and
it cost me $40!! argh, so careless of me..

road run was a joke ytd. waste of my time,
should'nt have gone seriously.

anws, next week's full of tests!
rock on muggers!

-hell yeah, there's always light at the end
of the tunnel, just hope it isn't a train. (:

2009-01-30T17:06:00.002+08:00

update finally after so long!
haha, been like few weeks since i last updated..
everything's great so far, there's been some ups
and downs but that's life and you gotta accept that.

i wanna work and buy my own things after the 'o's !
so many things that i wanna buy! things are especially
cheap during the financial crisis, so when the economy
is down, look on the bright side, things DO get cheaper.

alright, sch's full of tests and we have no choice but to study it.
but just like what mrs poon said, ' when there's a will there's a way.'
how true can that be..

there's more to update, but i just don't have the time.
damn, anw i don't think there are ppl who still come to this blog.
haha. let's end this off with something dirty:
victor jia you ! Gambate! xD

-without wax.
when there's a dwayne there's a b*tch.

2009-01-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

mid january alrd! oh my..
been so busy these few days
muggin' until there's no time
for computer.

sec4's life is really no joke, test
and test and test every week
can really drive you crazy at
times, but somehow i think
we will all benefit from these.
it's a blessing in disguise. (:

alright, there's still no news
of my result yet, wonder if
anything went wrong..

time for naruto!

-chatting with u these few days made
me realise that its hard to do without you...

2009-01-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

wow, it's 2009 alrd, so fast. highlights for
the past few days :

1st jan-
reached home at 11am! countdown
was great, met a new fren called glen
russell , haha. Great guy, shared many
stories with us, really appreciate it.
lunch at uncle's hotel and thats abt
it.

2nd jan-
haha, actually went late to sch, thinking
that sch starts on monday. LOL. still in
holiday mood man. went to catch 'seven
pounds' with sengkang gang. well, we
got kind of bored of the movie for the
1st hour until things started to get exciting.
HAHA!

alright, a great start for a new year.
i think im addicted to the ponyo song.

-ponyo ponyo ponyo sa ka na nor kor...

2008-12-29T01:45:00.003+08:00

3 more days to 2009!
actually im kinda excited though..
sis is on vacation to msia, and
im stuck at home, sian! =(

okay, so 2009 huh, lets see,
i only know i can't wait for CNY
and to watch 'angels and demons'
which opens on 15may i think.

i read the book and it so amazed
me. Dan Brown's novels never fail
to interest me. trust me, it's worth
reading the novel.

hmm, my new entertainment :
just downloaded 'The Price Is
Right' game from some webby.
it's kinda fun, guessing the price
of those items, the excitement ?
if u watch the show u know wad i mean.

alright, time to go, don't
wanna be late for tmr!

-how about a cruise which travels past the
panama canel !

2008-12-20T19:22:00.002+08:00

haha, i went to the marina barrage ytd ! it was so cool
and windy. omg, there was this steamboat
restaurant open air. we ate there and the
wind was so strong it almost blew the 'cai' all
over the place. hilarious.

i feel that marina barrage is a better place for
scenery viewing rather than singapore flyer.
trust me, when u get to the roof level of
the barrage, you'll know why.

anws, i just got my new spects.
HAHA, its red in colour , as
suggested by my mom. lols.

anyone interested in the marina
bay countdown ? :)

-will it blend ? that is the question.

2008-12-16T20:37:00.002+08:00

wow, so much has happened. i don't even
know where to begin.

something changed me, i don't know what
is it, but it's for the better , and im glad. but
it has a price, a hefty price...

before you know it, christmas's gonna be here
alrd. joy of giving huh? haha, i like that. anws,
i really hope 2009 will be a great year seriously.
it'll be full of revisions, it'll be tough, but i just
can't wait to get out of tk.

trust me, after the 'o's, im gonna let the good
times roll like the river flow. Hell yeah.

-share the joy of giving

this sux, nth seems to work for me. =(

2008-12-05T01:41:00.002+08:00

hey guys, just added adverts on my blog.
like wow, haha, at least i found something
to ' beautify ' my blog, thanks to valerie!
=)

anws, hols hw are more or less done, left
with projects and revisions. It's dec alrd,
like i said, time zoops, it doesn't flies. (haha)

choir & band concert wasn't too bad, was
pretty entertaining though for the band's
one. soon, it'll be christmas, and before
you know it, 2009.

ah, talking about the new year, kinda
lookin' forward to it. no reasons, just
feel that im gonna be a better person,
live the life i want, and maybe, fufill
my new year resoultion for the
first time? hmm..

it's getting late, remember,
proper planning prevents
piss-poor performance.
[ thats 6 'p' in a sentence! ]

-glad that we're cool, everything's
back to normal. (:

2008-11-28T18:21:00.002+08:00

hi guys! earning money online is so fun !
just click the green box on the right, sign up,
do some surveys and you can earn some money!

but before you do this, create a paypal online acc.
for the money to be transferred. as easy as that, use
the money for shopping or whatsoever you want, cool eh?

anws, just came back from 2e class chalet, not really that fail,
but still not too bad, considering the fact that we had 'disco'
and 'dirty talking part 1-5'. LOLS!

movie at 11.10pm became 12.10am , wow, that was something
which i didn't expect to experience at the chalet. watched poseidon
and borat at the chalet till 4am.

im so tired! yet there's still so much work to do. =/

-the way you talk to me's still the
same after so much has happened...

2008-11-24T01:18:00.002+08:00

changed my blog song. haha, the song's
somehow unique and special, quite
sentimental though.

left revision for hist and geog!
so glad. hope my efforts will pay off.

there's no piano concert this year, still
working on my pieces, next year will be
a good time to show it all, hmm...

alright, dozing.
imsomnia's bad for health too.

precious memories comes back to
my mind whenever i see u.. <3

2008-11-18T16:32:00.004+08:00

holidays already eh ?
very soon it's gonna be 2009.
o lvl year! =(

wow,they actually made a movie out of the 2012
prophercies. sadistic or innovative ? you decide.
glad that i've done some hols hw. gotta use this
holiday wisely, don't let time zoop past u just like that.

3d outing not too long ago, as usual sentosa. (haha)
there's gonna be 2e chalet! oh yea i love those times.
played wii on sunday! wii fit/sports so fun!
wii's one of the best consoles they ever created.

anw, just played around with photofunia, looks cool.
abit bhb la i know la, but its funia! lols.

-save us .222.

suddenly the new's all about end-of-life issues, =/

2008-11-04T20:25:00.002+08:00

oh my, tmr's olevel chinese.
that's not the sian part,
the sian part is there's like nothing to study ?
unlike the other subjects, good or bad decide for yourself...

live is gettting a'lil too boring these days.
there's no such thing as a holiday in sec3/4.
seriously, when do we have no homework
during the june/dec hols?

there's class outing and 2e chalet, haha.
wonder will be as fun as last year's!
well maybe not, so much has changed...

before i go,
can you believe that dwayne plays dota now?
OMGWTFBBQ.
haha.

2008-10-11T15:53:00.001+08:00

after exam periods are always damn sian.
life is so boring now, for the time being though, haha.

don't know what to do, although i feel like learning photography.
its cool to be the camera man at times. =D

just went shopping today, bought a top.
been awhile since i went out to bedok though, memories.

went to F1 with shi rong not to long ago, awesome sh!t.
doing all those stupid stuffs just to get a good view of F1 was fun.
WAYYY too fun.

iyah, this is seriously very sian.
wake up in the morning and i don't know what to do. lol.
heh, dota? =P

omg, im addicted to 'dirty' !

2008-10-01T21:02:00.002+08:00

End of years, so far so good ,haha.
neopets craze is here, haha stocks again.
congrats to my sis. (:

gotta go, revision time.

2008-07-20T18:51:00.002+08:00

oh no, old habits die hard yea?

haha, im back after a week of stress. it seems like there's
gonna be tests/quizzes every mon, tues and wed of the
week. argh.

okay, physics alternative assessment was screwed up. i
expected it so no regrets, cause taiwan and i focused more
on chem though.

apparently, there's amaths test on logarithms and co-geometry.
hmm, it'll be a breeze for me man. haha, :D

okay, yesterday was one of the days that 3D really got together.
as in social outings. haha, in other words. movie, esplanade, and LAN.
wow, they say secondary school life is very unforgettable. i totally
agree.

The Dark Knight was better than i expected it to be. Joker's acting was
seriously marvellous. this movie is wayyyy better than the 1st one. i'll
rate it 4.5 / 5 . hmm, 0.5 gap is for the ' Room for improvement. '

Magicbox was a little too...magical ? haha, can't find words to describe it.
not really as amazing as they say to me. but 1 thing i can't figure out is
how did they teleport?

LAN at 11.30pm - 1am in the morning is the most 'omg' thing i have ever
done in sec 3 so far. class games tend to change every year, Maple , Audition,
and now Dota. well, thats 3D for you. xD

alright, time to piano. exam's coming soon, gotta work hard. pray to god.

-romance d' amour
in times of desperation, i can only turn to you for help...

2008-07-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

hey guys, i just checked out a few piano vids on youtube.
awesome sh*t.

piano's such a wonderful instrument. such a pity that the
school canteen's piano is spoilt. oh well, students are students,
they'll just spoil and damage school property. haha!

being in breakthrough isn't that bad afterall. somehow i feel
that mrs poon's class is better than mr haresh's class. i feel
that i learn morefrom mrs poon than mr haresh.
[ No hard feelings dude. ]

oh man, i just can't wait to take diploma for piano. oh damn,
i can't wait to buy/own a piano on my own. It's gonna be
transparent, baby-grand, and expensive. oh yea. ;D

looking back at times, i used to dislike piano classes. I dont
know why i love it so much now. Although last year's concert
wasn't a hit, at least i got to show wad i had , but you didn't came...

oh man, what's yours is yours , and what isn't yours, isn't
yours. It's all god-planned. Had my 'O' level oral chinese today
though. not too bad, at least i spoke my mind freely? hmm..

i seriously hope you'll be there this year, i'll do it just for you.

2008-07-05T17:40:00.004+08:00

it's sad that some things in life you have to learn the hard way,
and i just did..

you caught me off-guarded man. wow, great job. one moment
you seemed positive, the other moment you seemed negative.
you should'nt have let me read your blog , because
the posts that i have
read totally crushed me. i kid you not.

alright, maybe it's because i don't want to repeat my mistakes
from last yr's experience, but as the saying goes, no pain no gain?
i seriously don't know what/how to tell u. i hope you'll chance upon
this blog, i really hope, it'll be fate then.

no doubt i have feelings for you, and i am glad that you're
grateful for all the things that i have done for you. i just wanted
you to be happy, and this is what you do to me ?

they're right, studies should come first, but sometimes, we do need
someone special to be with you so that life becomes more meaningful
yea? i wanted you to be that special someone, but from
wad i see... you already have one.

seriously i hope someone will tell u abt this, about how i feel,
cause i can't bring myself up to tell you. Everything is different now.

damn, i always get denied what i need the most,
love.

2008-06-28T16:20:00.003+08:00

tired. thats what i am now.

well, i gotta say, OBS was kinda interesting and
it gave me lots of experience which i was lacking
of, and i made better relations with the friends
in my group.

TENZING ( sounds like ten singhs eh ? )

-paesson
-gwendolyn
-isabel ho
-james
-stefan
-kai siang
-yuyi (fish)
-rachel lim(?)
-elbert
-clayton
-gabriel
-kai leun
-ong jin ( went home. )
-CAVEN ( hahaha.)
-me

won't forget what we did as a group. once a tenzine , always a tenzine.
overall i think this OBS camp was meaningful. i learned many lessons
of life which i think will definitely help me.

all good things come to an end don't they. after camp it's gonna be
homework time. damn, gotta catch up with my work if not im gonna be
lagging behind. hahaa...

its never too late to try.

so why aint i trying ?

2008-06-23T00:39:00.002+08:00

back to school. ( in like 6 hours more? )

haha, not enthu about it. its gonna be july in just
a matter of time. apparently we have new timetable.
heard that ms razi is gonna take us for geog ?
now is that a good news or a bad news ? hmm...

now, many things can happen tmr. New AG grouping?
i wanna stay in AG1 ! haha. hope more 3d ppl will be promoted
to Mr. Haresh's class. = O

taiwan and i had just done our chemistry project video. quite successful
i must say, haha, not gonna embed the video here, no way !
right after today its gonna be OBS alrd and i haven't started packing.
there's so many things to buy. Solid fuel tablets ? Oh no, not again...

i wanna be more focused in my studies. i don't want history to keep
repeating itself. if they can do it, why can't I ? its just a matter of your
mentality and your thinking.

shoud i have a cbox ?

2008-06-21T13:22:00.002+08:00

finally, i''m back from my camp. two-words = ' Thank God'.
haha. just went to facebook to check out the hols chem vids,
some of them were great , while some of them were, i don't wanna
say, hmm...

taiwan's coming over to my house later to do the chem project.
and we have to hand in up like tmr ? woah. tmr's the last day of the
june holidays, half a year just passed like that.

alright, let's don't talk about my camp for this post okay? don't wish
to post anything about it. it's so boring and it's so... dots? haha.
sad to say, in the first half of the year 2008, i thought it would
be a year full of fun, peace, joy and laughter. but i was wrong.

sometimes i feel heaven is so unfair to me. but on second thoughts,
maybe they're just trying not to let me get hurt again? i really don't
know, and i wonder why. is this fate's punishment for me ?

time's running out, time to go.

why do these things always end up this way? why?

2008-06-17T15:48:00.001+08:00

woah, its like i was just at the airport not too long ago,
and now, the choir people are on their way to russia now.
i wonder what airline they took ? hmm..

oh well, second post of this new blog.
away for camp till friday, i hope they release
us in the morning, haha. >.<

sigh, i have 1001 things to do but there's so little time.
how i wish holidays were much longer, maybe 1 month
just isn't enough for me ? lols. i did'nt even catch a single
movie this hols, gosh!

its late and i have to get started packing for my camp tmr.
i hope it doesn't bores me to death, haha! alrights, time to go.

#why is it so hard to say goodbye..

2008-06-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

hey guys! my blog's back in action. haha, like finally ?
i wanna lie low for the moment , so i hope not many people will
know about my new blog for now. New blog, new skin, and hopefully,
a new life.

okay, sad to say, hols are coming to an end. oh well, all good things
come to and end don't they ? im glad that this holiday indeed is
rather meaningful. Been there, done that.

alrights, ima going to the airport later to send choir people off to
russia! wow, im rather jealous! russia's such a beautiful country,
too bad choir's going there for competition, if not, im sure the sightseeing
tours will definitely be a killer there. haha.

yawns, kind of sleepy now. wonder what time does the first train arrives?